I am so happy and grateful now that I have money coming to
me through multiple sources in increasing quantities on a continuous basis so
that I may pursue my more primitive primary goal of being a teacher and artist
of expression. I have been blessed with the ability to connect to a source that
is much greater than myself. I have no clue why I have been given this gift
other than because it is for this gift that. I have searched for and it has
taken quite some time to develop and though I haven’t developed it completely I
have developed it to a level that is makes it attainable under favorable conditions.
It is the development of this gift that will enable me to attain the source
even under stressful situation or better yet, what used to be stressful
situations. I will be capable of complete calm and total consciousness even in
the presence of danger, or worse, trying to perform for people who are
watching. It is the understanding that
this life is no more than a game that allows you to realize that there is no
reason to have stress. What are you stressed about; some peering eyes that will
judge you? What difference does it make? The main person you need to worry
about judging you is yourself. That is the enemy. The judgment of oneself,
whether it is good or bad is ultimately to the determent of the individual because
it takes him away from the very thing that led him to that point whether it be
victory or defeat. It is about the battle for, the journey toward, the pursuit
of, happiness. The glorification of either as a definition of who you are is
incorrect. You are neither a winner nor a loser. You are that thing which wins
or loses, but to identify as either a winner or a loser will certainly lead up
to a perception correction because under no circumstances will any human
maintain that label indefinitely, that is unless they just conclude they are a
loser in which case they will likely prevail at indefinite losses or they may decide
not to play at all, which will create an entirely different set of problems. Identifying
as a winner, loser or spectator, places in the mind a sense of superiority and
any sense of this is felt by others and immediately rejected. We are all divine
creatures who should be treated as well as we would wish to be treated. Humility
is a strong character quality in the presence of others. Pride is a fault not
long followed by failure.
